--Wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson
“I can’t remember what it’s like to eat without planning for it, charting the calories and the fat content and measuring my hips and thighs to see if I deserve it and usually deciding no, I don’t deserve it, so I bite my tongue until it bleeds and I wire my jaw shut with lies and excuses while a blind tapeworm wraps itself around my windpipe, snuffling and poking for a wet opening to my brain.”
--Wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson
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“I can’t stop, but I can’t keep going,’ she told me. ‘Nothing works.’ I totally supported her. I looked up the names of docs and clinics. I e-mailed her recovery Web sites. And I sabotaged every step. I told her how strong she was and how healthy she was going to be and how proud I was of her and I dropped in how many calories I ate that day, the magic number on the scale, the number of inches around my thighs. We went to the mall and I made sure we used the same dressing room so she could see my skeleton shine in the florescent blue light.”
--Wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson |